humbled...

I am so humbled by my children. They are amazing and I just can't tell you how much I love them and how much they mean to me, without them I am nothing because I have nothing.

Our garden area was a disaster - for several reason, more on that in another post and it is because of who Faith and Andrew are that we have a garden this year, why it's doing so well and why I am so humbled tonight. As their mom I get to witness them shine and I often have my heart pop with pride because of the thoughtfulness, kindheartedness or caring things they do often for other people. But is was one of those shining moments that connected itself  to tonight in the garden that I'll not forget. Complete selflessness is what I witnessed tonight and and I had no right to ask for their help and they both willingly gave up a perfect summer evening to spend it in the garden helping me weed and tend the plants. Not a complaint was uttered, not a sigh nothing but complete willingness to work.

There are few things in life better than a perfect summer evening where the air is cool and dry with a gentle summer breeze, bare knees buried in the warm earth, the birds singing in the treetops, the vocalizations of a mother goat to her baby, the clucking of chickens, dirt under your fingernails, affectionate conversation between my children and I united, solid, steady and strong.

So many people travel the world looking for the peace they might just be able to find in their own backyard.

It IS a beautiful world

All the noise and the voices are screaming what they have to say
And all the headlines and soundbites are giving me demons to hate
And the man on TV, he tells me it's ugly, but if you ask me it's a

Beautiful world, it's a beautiful world

There's tears and there's fears and there's losses and crosses to bear
And sometimes the best we can do is just to whisper a prayer
Then press on because
There's so much to live for and so much love in this

Beautiful world
Say what you will but I still believe
It's a beautiful world
It's a beautiful world

And I know I'm not dreaming
I just chose to believe it

So I hate that I sometimes miss what's in front of me eyes
And I know at the end of my road I'll be wanting more time
Just another sunset
One more kiss from my baby, a smile from a friend, in this

Beautiful world
It's a beautiful world
Yeah, it's a beautiful world
Say what you will but I still believe
It's a beautiful world
It's a beautiful world

Written by Jim Beavers, Brett Beavers, Dierks Bently
Sung by Dierks Bently and Patty Griffin off the CD Feel That Fire


I post this tonight because this is one of my favorite songs and I could never have written that sentiment so eloquently. I post it for my children in the hope that they will always be able to see it as a beautiful world and be able to beautifully find their place in it. I post it for future generations in the hope it will continue to be a beautiful world. I know some of you may think I'm just being naive or looking through rose colored glasses, but let me assure you that I am not. This beautiful world has and will continue to have it's share of heartache but what I'm trying to focus on is that even in the heartache there is beauty. Trying to learn to dance in the rain and living in a beautiful world by making it that way because of the choices I make.