Friday, July 29, 2011

{this moment}

{this moment} - A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011


We're all home together tonight under one roof. So peaceful and thanking God for everything.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Hey Mr. "I'm a cancer doctor,"

Hey Mr. "I'm a cancer doctor," I don't need your flippant remarks, arrogance , or nasty attitude! Especially after 3 WEEKS!!!! We didn't ask for this, we have questions and want answers. All I ask if that you pretend that you care for the three minutes you I mean after all I only waited 9.5 hours today, AND 3 WEEKS to talk to you about this! I sincerely hope that if ever you find yourself in this situation you are shown more compassion than you've shown us!'re in the room, remember your oath? First do no harm?! Your bad attitude is harmful to patients and families!

Sunday, July 24, 2011


Ron had surgery to remove the tumor on Thursday, it was an extreeeeeeemely invasive surgery and the tumor was not able to be removed. I'd prepared myself for lots of things but not being able to remove the tumor was not even a possibility in my mind. So if I let my mind start to wander it tends to go to very scary places so I'm keeping it occupied by knitting and caring for Ron when he needs me. We are meeting with the oncologist on Monday to talk about the next step.

Monday, July 18, 2011

brief-ish update and thank you doglady :-)

First of all thank you all for the prayers and concern, the past two weeks have been the most difficult weeks of my life up to this point and yet I can say that even in facing this I feel blessed. I am finding the most amazing support in places I never expected to find it and not finding it in places I'd have expected to find it. It's been full of emotions, heartache and stress and mercy and beauty and hope.

Two weeks ago today I brought Ron to the ER for a second time and to make a very long story short he'd been very sick for a while prior to that so upon a bit of investigation they found a tumor on his kidney measuring 9cm x 9cm x by 10cm, was admitted and told he had cancer, they just needed to run some more tests to figure out which type it was. So about a million tests later, 2 biopsys, several ct scans and an ultrasound later we still do not have a diagnosis or plan, and did I mention it's been 2 weeks?! Now I'm not exactly considered a patient person about much of anything and I generally live my life by the philosophy of you get more flies with honey than vinegar, (of course I've never figured out what you'd do with all those flies...) so I've been waiting mostly patiently for two weeks without any answers. I will admit to backing a PA into the wall after a week of nothing to get answers and being quite successful with that, but I've had enough! Seeing my husbands spirit sink to a frustrating low today lit a fire inside me tonight. I'm gathering my thoughts and and headed into the hospital prepared for a battle tomorrow. I've been told be several people that you have to advocate for yourself and that you have to be aggressive and force the issue, maybe that's true. How sad if it is, I don't want to have to be that way and I don't want to raise my kids in a way that that's the expected "norm." Nor do I want to wait for people to think about the possibility of making a decision likely sometime in the future if the wind is right and the crow if flying east while my husband sits in pain in a hospital room and that's what I'm faced with right now, so if I need to advocate more loudly than the person in the next room I'm in! I'll do what it takes to get him the care he needs, it's been two weeks of in hospital care and several weeks before that, enough is enough!

Thursday, July 14, 2011

good quote

"Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business and to work with your hands, just as we told you, so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody."

1 Thessalonians 4: 11 & 12

Saturday, July 9, 2011

{this moment}

{this moment} - A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.

* A day late and a dollar short, as usual. And tweaked to meet my needs, this is not from this week, but it is a moment I want to remember.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

good quote

"God is in control, and therefore in EVERYTHING I can give thanks - not because of the situation but because of the One who directs and rules over it.
~Kay Arthur~

Monday, July 4, 2011

please keep praying

Long story short - just returned home from our second trip to the ER this week. 4-5 inch tumor on Ron's kidney biopsy tomorrow. Thanks so much for you prayers.

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Independence? Day

My sister posted this on Facebook yesterday and I think it's brilliant, so I thought I'd share it with you and hope it makes you take a moment and think about what it really means...

"from Sarah at Grassland Farms....Think about this. . .you are celebrating Independence day this weekend. Is it really independent to buy your beef from Brazil, your lettuce from Mexico, your cheese from France, your paper plates and decorations from China. . . you get my point. Truly celebrate America and Independence this weekend by SUPPORTING American and even better LOCAL food and business!"

Can we still celebrate our independence if we cannot feed ourselves, clothe ourselves, fuel our American made vehicles?